they give me this super judgy snobby vibe that I like have to be relaxed and chill and if I get upset and angry rage and loud that it’s over they don’t want to go through anything and that’s disgusting because it isn’t love unconditionally and it doesn’t mean they care enough about me. They truly are not all in and down. Cheating is one thing like that is despicable but also when it comes to truly hating a man it’s when they’re doing what I described above! It makes me want to lean in to the crazy further
It’s the same thing with how I will do what bothers men purely instinctually like I need to fuck with them expose them to their fears and judgement of me. But I was wondering during the bath about how much THEY put the judgement upon me versus I do or at least I allow them to cage me. I think that’s what so confusing to people about me is that even though I’m a lion rising my Libra moon like almost takes me into the cage and closes the door voluntarily and then I’m like of fuck this cage is too small for being a lion and if they aren’t giving the vibe that I can get out (ok this metaphor btw means that I mask myself and make emotions smaller or under the rug to keep the peace and be the version of me I was when they showed their initial interest… then when we get closer I have to have the space to show my ugly or my mad or my sad or my tired and there are people who make it feel very unsafe to be those things without risking them leaving so I am then in a fear response like anxious attachment style would look) however some people like give the vibe that getting out of the cage is more than ok and they want to be cage free too with me so we can run around crazy and floor cuddle bahaha love love love that!!! Also the Scorpio Venus comes out when I’m suffering so the cage doesn’t fucking matter anymore because I’m about to ZING fucking poisonous sting one of us, you or me!!! Haha I am better at hurting them now I should too because you never have to hurt yourself when they’re fuckers!!!! Idc if I got into the cage voluntarily. You fucking let me stay there and wanted me there and made it scary outside the fucking cage assholes.